Something’s wrong with ME

I don’t know what but something’s definitely wrong with me. I can’t be cool anymore, the way I have been most of the times. I have to consult at least 2 3 people before taking any decisions, I get so nervous whenever any problem arises and just can keep my calm and think over it. People come to know I am tensed. This was not me few years back, perhaps few months back. I used to be calm and cool and always laughing and taking things not so seriously and dealing with situations the best way.

Few hours back I just got in a situation (in fact I am not out of it yet) but then there was no need to be so tensed and nervous, as I got. My seniors talked to me when I consulted them and then my dead confidence boosted up. It’s not like I don’t have the courage or confidence or the decision making ability but somehow these days I get quite frightened of the situations even before they begin, forgetting that the situation can be dealt with and it would be all cool again.

I still can think from all aspects when some of my friend falls in any situation and I have helped and help them with the best way out. But when it comes to me somehow I get too nervous as if it’s the end and all. Perhaps sometimes my temperament makes me more nervous, like I get angry over things and obviously think of not expressing it every now and then and then just suppressing it within I get nervous what would happen. This is being so confusing, I am sure the one who will read this will be more confused but then I just had to note this down for my future reference. Hehe.

Anyways right now I am bit relieved, I aint sure if the current situation gonna get worse or better but still I am being patient. Let’s see what happens.

Don’t worry I am cool.

** this tension is about office life and I dint want to mention all details in here so hope u just get the gist of the situation. (wrote in office at 6pm 4/3/10, will publish at night)

Sachin “GOD” Tendulkar

What a perfect day to write about GOD…yes GOD…I can’t think of any other word for this person.

I am high on happiness today.

It’s been almost one hour now but my goosebumps are not leaving me…

I am lucky…very lucky…

At about 5 pm I was at home and surfing net, dint care to see the match score. India VS South Africa.

After sometime I remembered some one mentioned in office that Sachin had scored another century…I simply opened the scorecard online and that was it…I got the shock of life…the most lovely shock…I saw Sachin’s score as 197…My breath stopped, believe me, it did. I went on to see the news and then I realized that the life was about to get more lovely and sweeeeeeet.

I actually thought match was over and Sachin scored 197 Not Out which was a world record anyways…but then I came to know Dude is still playing.

Oh goodness…I just cant express watching those last 7 balls of the match.

I simply saved myself from being called the unluckiest motherfucker sitting at home surfing internet while GOD was making miracles there making the WORLD RECORD of 200 runs in ODI.

I have lived my life. Sachin, you are the phenomenon. You are simply the BEST.

It’s not only the scores but your modesty and humble nature which keep u at the top of the world. You have created history and I know that there is more to come.

I am simply high on happiness today. Don’t need nothing to get more high. GOD I have got a new mantra for u…its called “Om Namah Sachinaay… Om Namah Sachinaay…”

Please say it aloud… :-)

Love you Sachin.

Image courtsesy :- http://news.bbc.co.uk/sport2/hi/cricket/8534309.stm

*** Heard a lot about twitter and hence joining it today.

2010 is here…Happy New Year (hehehe…I kno I am late)

Hehe. I know I am so late in wishing but then its better late than never.

Its all my laziness to be blamed here and no excuses of work or other tensions…sheer laziness.

Anyways I have been all optimistic about 2010…don’t know why, but I feel everything’s gonna be all goody goody for me in this year.

The two major tensions I always had in life were my elder sister’s wedding and my onsite.

1st cuz she has studied a lot and it had been impossible to find a equally educated groom for her with medico background in our caste and family doesn’t have much social contacts to get some good proposal.

2nd cuz its all about money. Onsite is the only chance where I can earn a bit of money in bulk so that I can plan something for my family in future.

2010 began and my sister got a good proposal and the marriage is finalized and she will be getting married somewhere in next month. I am so happy for her. Her,would be, is also a post graduate medico and both have liked each other a lot and that’s all what matters in marriage.

The onsite thing, its all up and down even now. I have completed almost 4 years in offshore now and thats a pretty long time in one company and especially in the one I am employed in. Some stupid people even judge this as incompetitiveness but I know all about it now. Luck does matter a lot.

There are very less onsite opportunities for me out there, it seems. Got interviewed for one and it was pretty weird and some miscommunication and still waiting to hear from the BIG GUYS…one has contacted and I haven’t confirmed them yet…today got one more call from someone regarding one more opty and he was sounding too affirmative…so lets see what happens…I am hoping that something works out pretty soon…lets hope for the best.

So you see both the tensions seem to be ending now.

To add to these there have been some real good things going on around.

One of my closest friend Mandar got engaged just last week and it was such a cool night, what better date than V’day to carry out such a great ceremony. His fiancé Spruha is a prefect match for him.

A week before that my close college friend Romi got married. And it had been such a memorable time. Right from the Sangeet night, the Wedding occasion both Maharashtrian and Marwadi style and then the reception night. All was fun and fun and only fun. We were a bunch of like 15 20 guys out there and we really did the best we can do and everyone did notice that these guys are amazing and that was a nice feeling.

And a lot many such occasions gonna come this year, I am sure.

The very 1st moment of 2010, I got this feeling of optimism that the year’s gonna rock for me. I have been positive all the time and I gonna remain the same. It has been scientifically proven that luck comes to people who consider themselves lucky. Though many of the times crib about being the most unluckiest guy but then I do believe that I have been lucky and that’s what has kept me positive most of the times. This year is going to completely prove the science :-)

Hope you all have a rocking year ahead.

This is my year…your year…our year \m/

P.S. Year 2009 was the worst year of my life…I don’t recall anything good happening to me in the last year. Good that it’s the past now and I won’t remember it anyways going forward…

R.I.P. Brittany

Brittany Murphy...a very young talented Hollywood actress passed away just sometime back and its a big loss for Hollywood.

Though I have seen few of her movies...but I fell in love with her when I saw "Uptown Girls" few years back...for me she was one of the cutest face ever and her smile was simply the best...

Rest In Peace dear and love you a lot forever.
You will always be there in our memories...Miss U... :-(


**Image Courtesy :- http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Brittany_Murphy

Avatar

Saw this movie last night on 17th Dec, my 1st premier show of life.
And glad to have seen this movie’s premier show which would be one of the most unforgettable movies of my life…

Was very much excited to see this movie specially after coming to know that it has been more than 10 years now that James Cameron has been working on this project…he made technology for making the movie which is generally opposite case…like people use technology which is already there for their movies…hehe…being the director of movies like Terminator and Judgment Day and Titanic and many more…now you know this movie is not going to disappointment you…so its all excitement rushing in my head…then and even now… :-)

So it was an instantaneous plan…I just checked out the availability of the premier shows in 3D and there was one cinema near to office so we 5 guys decided to watch the late night premier….10 pm to 12.40 am :-)

The movie began and then it was all the James Cameron brilliance on the screen, the Pandora, Jake Sully / Avatar, Neytiri, Grace, the soul tree, the music, the humans good and evil and the most important thing was the 3D effects which added life to all we look at…each and every small thing has been taken care of…the new creatures, their phenomenon, small insects, animals, the forest…the floating mountains…the equilibrium of energy, the bonding between all of them and the lesson that what keeps them as ONE.

At the end of the movie all you have is the hats off feeling for the director and the entire team and the adrenaline rush of watching something SO big, if you just think you will feel that it’s really a big project…this aint no just another movie…it was completely flawless…and all fun and excitement…the technology to its best…and one thing I feel and say…
James Cameron … you are GOD \m/

Guys…just don’t miss this movie and please don’t spoil all the fun by NOT watching it in 3D.

I consider myself really lucky to have seen this movie’s premier show.

Happy Birthday Jim Morrison

Jim Morrison
happy birthday
today is the day
the day GOD was born
the birth
the death
the man who invented life
the man who lived and never died
the doors
the end

I cannot imagine my life without The Doors


** I have my CAT paper at 10 am...lolz.

CAT Debacle…a complete WTF situation

28th Nov 09…CAT exam’s first day…this time the management gurus have decided to go online…no more paperwork and stuff and to save some cost…actually a good decision…but only till the noon of 28th Nov.

I was amongst the few lazy asses who bought the CAT form almost on the last day and hence we were the ones who got the slot of the 1st day…maximum people would be choosing 5th and 6th Dec weekend.

So I went to my centre in Bandra and my friend Ankit was with me…we had 3.30 pm time slot. We were called 2 hours before and we did reach then…we firstly wondered that why the hell guys who appeared for the slot of 10 am are are coming out at 2 and 2.30 but then thought may be just that their exam started bit late.

And then we got our seats in respective computer labs, at first the exam application wasn’t starting. For first 15 mins we thought it is a regular trouble the people there would be of help but then the problem was there for all the students and then the situation went chaotic as almost no one was able to give the exam and then we were told that there is server crash or some overload shit that screwed the exam…

We all were like wtf man…means cant u guys even take care of one exam…and do u really have any idea how big is that??? For me and Ankit, we went just cuz we bought the forms…we didn’t study…but there are people who slog their asses studying like 20 hours a day only for this D Day of theirs’ and when they come here thinking the battle of 2 and half hours will change their life when they win it…what they see is this bullshit mismanagement…they are told the exams not today and when it is, this will be informed on mail or msgs or calls…how do u expect some one to react???
This is a big psychological defeat for people who study so seriously…

No kidding…for one girl I came across…the software hanged in the middle of the exam…after she had completed 20 questions…fuckin 20 questions…isn’t this a security breach…what if she post those 20 question online…what will be done then??

People don’t choose dates randomly…they choose dates cuz of some reason…people come from various city for this exam…I know people who even came from US just to give their CAT (the same girl mentioned above) and she is supposed to travel back to US tomorrow…how is rescheduling the exam going to help her??? Will there be US return tickets sponsored to her??

There were 2 people in our room who were giving the paper while all this chaos was going on…I really feel sorry for them as there was no room for them to concentrate but then the others too couldn’t control themselves…it was good that after sometime we all vacated the room and shifted to other classroom where we were told about rescheduling.

The prometric people have performed pathetically bad …can’t they even test one software performance and one server speed…can’t u write scripts to bring thousands of people online on one server and test its performance…I know I am getting too technical…but this is for one smart ass who was present in the argument and raised a point…dude how do u expect them to test server for 20000 people…man we IT people do it all the time…do u even fuckin know how does a sever work…fuckhead.

It was one hell of a experience, I never ever imagined that one of the biggest exam in India would get cancelled cuz of such a mismanagement…and the other surprise was today morning when the server problem was still persistent and the exam got cancelled again on the 2nd day…the feeling is funny now…I am simply laughing…I don’t have anything better to do…

Anyways I just hope that the problem gets solved very soon cuz I know this exam matters a lot for lot many people who actually wait for this one BIG DAY of CAT exam and it doesn’t fuckin matter to them to darken the circles on OMR or to click the radiobuttons on computer screen.

Best luck buddies :-)

** only good thing that happened on that evening was that I saw SRK on his terrace when he came out to greet his fans since it was bakri eid :D