Finally…Finally…Finally…in USA

So finally got an onsite opportunity…was waiting for this one from a very long time…struggled a lot, in fact fought a lot…got delayed for quite a long…more than a year to be honest and then many more hurdles…getting into some unwanted project and then the release issue and then promises which didn’t work out and then bad luck of projects getting scrapped…but at last it did work out for me…better late than never :)

Last few months have been really frustrating and depressing...the only thing on mind was when will my onsite work out…and finally when it did I am happy :)

The visa got processed from some different account and then got opportunity from some different account and travelled to Davidson, North Carolina, USA.

The things happened at the lightning speed and as usual I being a person doing things at the 11^th hour, it all was such haste, I just can’t forget. Special thanks to Akshay and his car ;) that made it possible to reach the port on time and also the last minute shopping and packing, goodness it was like the 1 minute show when you do things at the fastest speed possible, hehe. Can you imagine giving 3 trousers for alteration and buying a lot of other stuff I needed to pack, at 8 pm when my check in time was supposed to be 9 pm, that’s another thing that I checked in at 10.30. I am such a careless bastard. Hehe. But at last everything went well so I don’t have any regrets.

The flight was fine. A non stop from Mumbai to NY. Then a connecting one to Charlotte and then a taxi drive of 30 minutes to Davidson.

The 1^st day was a real different experience. Everywhere it was so silent, I could not sustain it for some time. Hardly anyone on the streets. All houses of the same type, cars parked everywhere, all turns look the same, it’s gonna be difficult to remember the roads. But its fine, I will get accustomed soon, it has just been a week :)

The human experience has been cool too. Americans are as courteous as I had expected them to be. Anyone you come across will wiggle their head and tell you Hi.

The changes I observed were in the desi janta, my own people. Some teetotalers who thought drinking as a real bad habit in India have now started drinking perhaps thinking that makes them hip. And then some real unexpected human courtesy changes but lets not talk about that. For a day I was bit down but then its life and it doesn’t fuckin wait for anyone so you have to move along. Came across some real cool guys and now friends and won’t forget their courtesy.

Still gotta need some time to settle down as the next house available is on 23^rd Oct and that’s almost 1 month later and again you cannot be entirely self dependent here unless you own a car so that’s another thing I have to take care of and will take bit long since I don’t know how to drive a four wheeler :(

Other than this, office is cool, learning is good and I am keeping it up so looking forward to having a good time with a lot of value addition.

Rest all is fine. Things gonna get settled soon and I am gonna have the time of my life in here without any regrets. Missing my friends in India a lot ;-( hope you all missing me too :D

Happy Wedding Anniversary Mom & Dad

Today is the 30th wedding anniversary of my mom & dad…
actually…wishing each other on such special occasion including birthdays is not something we have been doing in our family…it has been all very mutual…ya but it never changed the importance of the day :-)
I called them in the morning and the call must have lasted hardly for 5 minutes and I spoke to both of them and wished them before cutting the call…

I don’t have much to write about this occasion…the only thing I wonder is that how can someone spend thirrrtttyyyyyy years together…not even wonder but rather I get a thot that isn’t that a real big deal...atleast for my generation…like we guys sometimes get bored of someone in just few days man and then marrying a gal and being with her for all your lifetime according to the oath taken at the time of marriage…that’s gonna be real big deal man…may be time will decide it better…rather than me spending time imagining stupid things bout it…hehe…

So Mom & Dad … I know you never gonna read this … But still… A very happy wedding anniversary to both of you…you actually have been real great and special mom & dad…I cannot imagine my life without the freedom I have got from you and the way you have actually let me be what I have been without trying or forcing me to become someone ideal…believe me my love for you was never less even a bit…and I accept it with a little guilt that I have never expressed that when we be together but I know and this is the best thing of my life…I know that you two too understand it… love u !!

P.S. :- The pic must hv been taken within a year after getin married smwhr in 1979 - 80...look at my dad...long hair huh !! and they always scold me when I let my hair grow long...hehe.

A noteworthy failure

Everyone has some failures in life. I am no exception.
This failure is something that will be remembered all life.

This is the failure that will make me remember that I am no genius to get thru the MBA exams.

I actually feel that I am an intelligent fella and if I try hard I can do well in exams too.

But it didn’t turn out to be true in case of the MBA exams I appeared for this year.
I gave all the exams I was eligible for…CAT, XAT, FMS, NMAT, SNAP, JMET and CET and I simply screwed up all them…pretty well and equally…I got thru none.

CAT...scored pathetically bad…lower than my 1st attempt last year without studying.
XAT…did well…very good score but didn’t get thru Math cut-off so simply of no use.
FMS, NMAT, SNAP, JMET don’t remember the scores but screwed them too.

CET the only exam where I would have stood some good chance as it has reservation for NT…I screwed it too…not completely though…scored fine and now GD/PI is awaiting and after that the results will be declared…so lets wait and watch…I cant say anything more.

But scores of these exams is not the real embarrassment for me, neither is the fact that I must have spent at least 10000 bucks behind the exams and for applying in some other institutes and additional 5000 for the correspondence course in IMS and test series.

The real embarrassment is that I took more than a month time to study for the exams, I took leave for a month and went to Nagpur and I planned to study at least 16 hours a day and just crack each of the fuckin exams but vice a versa happened, I got fucked in all of them. Its not that I didn’t try at all, I did...but now I feel that may be it was not up to the mark...but now giving explanations is of no use, as it has been very correctly said “Excuses are for the losers” and may be I am one of them.

I am not pessimistic to accept that I am not worth being an MBA but then I won’t be a fool claiming I am worth one though I can’t become one.

So now I am waiting for my last result and the upcoming GD/PI. If I get thru then well and good or else I have this current IT life to live ahead.

Just wish me luck :D

P.S. The post was written in office in evening and I have posted it now.

So ja saale...Net kahi nahi ja raha !!

Its just 6 days that I have got the connection and seriously my daily routine has become worse. I am already so nocturnal and now cuz of internet I am again stressing myself.
I need to sleep…I am sleeping for just 6 hours daily now…as you guys know I used to sleep like 9 hours on weekdays too…so 6 hours is kinda difficult…I feel so damn sleepy sometimes in office specially after lunch.

What am I doin? Even I don’t know… I am not watching many movies either…I am just downloading…ya download was something I wanted to do a lot…and I am actually doing it so…in last just 6 days I have downloaded more than 8 Gb of movies…all kinda ;-) and some moozik related stuff too…I am utilizing each penny of what I have paid…but man I need to see the movies too…think I need to revive my daily routine.

I also wanted to blog a lot…which actually I haven’t done…atleast not to my satisfaction…but now I have decided I will…I love to write.

So that is it…sleep is something I need…schedule is something I need to renew…lets wait and watch.

So lemme end with what I have started…So ja saale…Net kahi nahin ja raha !!
this is what anya told me online on the very 1st night after I got the connection :-)

The Blood is still Pumping

Fuck Yeah !!

I am alive...and its gonna be rocking now...today i got an internet connection for the 1st time in ma life...i kno dis sounds fuckin weird man...like i actually bliv alongwith ppl like ani and rahuli dat net connection is a basic need nw a days... but ya i ws managing somehw widout it...

Newys fuck the past...

I am all set to rock dis place again...

Man...I am so happy...yeah the blood is still pumping !!

\m/

1st Anniversary of my HTC Touch :-)

It has been exact 1 year that I bought this my cell phone…HTC Touch.

I still remember that I was in Pune as usual…for weekend I guess and then I had to buy a new mobile phone since my earlier one got too old…and then one fine night…I guess 1st October we few guys were having dinner in George and then we were discussing about all the new cell phones in market…and then Wasim talked about HTC Touch…I never heard of the company…lol…but he was too much in favor of it…and then we all got pretty excited and then we came back to Rahul’s flat and checked out the cell phone’s review on net…and then I almost fell for it :-)

Means the touch flow video really rocks man…u just feel…what the fuck is that…its too cool… (honestly telling this touch flow function I must have used hardly 10 times in entire year…lol) ya but it looks too cool…and specially when some one who hasn’t seen this cell and you are showing him your cell phone and then do that touch flow thing…he really feels…man that fuckin cool…

So then next day…that is on Mahatma Gandhi Anniversay we went to telephone shoppee and saw all available cell phones…N73…MotoRocker and HTC touch being the main attraction and then I took some time and guys (Akshay and Rahul took some time…Rahul was inclined towards any one of the 1st two and Akshay was inclined towards HTC Touch) and I was in complete dilemma about what to buy…and then the most important factor of life GOD (money) was also there…HTC was costing 19.5 K…man it was too costly (at least at that time)…but then sometimes you have to take the risk…risk as in buying something really new in market…which you haven’t seen anyone using and then spending such a big amount on it…but then as it has been said “No Risk No Gain”…I took the risk and believe me I gained a lot…

(I bought the cell phone on next day…3rd October 2007 as I couldn’t take out so much cash at the same night cuz of cash withdrawal limit)

The cell phone was just launched in market…in fact most of my friends never heard of it before…including myself…and when I messaged everyone regarding the new cell phone…someone even felt that HTC Touch is a typo for Hutch…lolz

This cell phone is really cool to use and there are no flaws in it…its worth the money you spend…I am not gonna write all the cool things...yup but in short it’s a good deal :-)

So that’s all…Happy Birthday to U…my dear HTC Touch :-)

P.S.:- my earlier cell phone is N-Gage QD and I am still using it along with my new cell phone :-)

I need some time

Hi everybody...(actually those who care to check out if I have posted something new :D)

Anyways...I haven't posted anything from a long time and I actually wanna write quite a lot things that keep coming in mind (and leave it very soon...lolz) but I need some time...that's all I can say as of now...

So hope I take out some time and write things... :-)

Mama I' M Coming Home

Few more hours and then I will be on the way (in the train) to my hometown --- NAGPUR
Nagpur my love…city of oranges…city of hearts…city of joy…city of lovely people and the most important of all…city of my family and FRIENDS :-)

It has been 5 months, I haven’t been there…can you imagine….5 fuckin months…and I have not visited Nagpur even once…man its hell lot of a gap…I am just 800 km away and couldn’t manage to go to home from a real long time…but finally the wait is over…tomorrow I will be leaving and within few hours I will be there…my Karmabhumi (the place of one’s deeds).

Just 5 minutes before I got done with the packing and stuff…cuz it’s no normal vacation for me…I am going there for 11 days...man 11 days is really cool…

For the 1st time after I joined my job…that means in last 2 years this will be my longest vacation at home…hurraayyyyyy…I am so excited…so curious…so eager…so desperate…I just can't express all of it in words…I am simply happy.

It took me more than 2 hours to get my packing done along with sorting all the clothes I have…I have so many clothes…I never knew…I get so angry over myself looking at few of them…I haven’t worn them from such a long time…most of them are so dirty now…after I return there is gonna be a big task waiting for me…washing all the clothes…but leave it…right now I don’t wanna think of anything except me going home…

Home…sweet home!!

All friends are gonna be there…and it’s gonna be real fun…we gonna party real hard…yupppiiiieeeeeee…


There is gonna be no work load…no daily fucked up robotic routine…no deadlines…no issues…no tensions…

There is gonna be only fun...masti...maahol and rest after I get tired :-)

So that’s it…now time to sleep its 2.35 am…not too late for me though…lol

Mama I’M Coming Home!!

Where am I ??

Helloooo … anybody in there?
Hey, where are you man? No blog from a long time, huh?
Wassup these days? ........... That’s me to myself … hehehhe.

Hmm…man last week was so hectic specially the last two working days.
Had training (Siebel EIM) on Thursday and Friday.
As usual slept by 2.30 am on Wednesday night (oh k, its Thursday morning).
Woke up at 7 in morning to catch the 8 am bus for office.
Reached office at exact 8.50 am, there was hardly anyone else, atleast no one from my project.
Some insane person will only like to get up early in the morning in this season.
It’s right now raining in Mumbai and the atmosphere in morning is so good to sleep :-) it is psychologically so difficult to look out at the atmosphere out of our window and wake up.
Sometimes I feel, given a chance, I would have been sleeping all day, but alas!

Anyways so I reached office and then had breakfast and then attended training from 10 am till evening, then came back to desk and started working.
I was thinking that I will leave early as I came early but then according to the Murphy ’s Law, there were issues at night to look after and it made me leave by 1030 pm bus at night. I was so damn tired and sleepy, I just can’t express now.

Ok, then reached home and had dinner and all, it was again 1 am and then as I am used to sleeping late, inspite of being so tired I slept at 2 at night.
Next day again it was training so woke up at 7 again, got the bus, attended the training and then office and then somehow managed to leave by 9.30 bus.
Came back home and watched “Jo Jeeta Wohi Sikandar” on TV :-) one of the best Bollywood Movies. So slept late again at 2.30 and then it was Saturday, lovely Saturday, woke up at 12.3o, few people bugged me up with calls, in my early morning sleep (in between 9 to 11 am…lolz) but I managed to cut it short and then slept again :-)

So Saturday was good, went to meet Ambu at airport and then had lunch with him there itself and then went to akshay’s place in Bandra and then went to buy books with him for him only and then went to Band Stand, had a walk in heavy drizzle and then had an Irish Coffee in CCD, it was too sweet :-( and then moved back home. Iqbal was going on TV so watched it. Its one of the best movies by Nagesh Kukunoor, he is really a nice director.

So again slept late night at 2.30 and then today morning woke up at 9 and went to give Simcat 5 of IMS and then it went ok except for Maths which now I am realizing is my weak area…study u motherfuc*er (I curse myself a lot)…so that’s it…and then was at home from then…didn’t bath :-) … talked with Anya and Rahulya on net itself, it was fun…ya saw one of the best movies infact this year’s best bollywood movie “Taare Zameen Par” in noon…man it’s a must watch…my eyes get wet in some of its scenes…ya then that’s all…whole day was like…AARAAM !!

Then again wasn’t feeling sleepy so thought of blogging a bit and here is the result :-) … sala dekhte hi dekhte bohaat sara likh diya bey…anyways time to sleep…office tomorrow :-(

How I fuckin hate Mondays !!

Gudnight.

1st blog 4m mobile

1st blog 4m mobile
Bahut pakk raha hai bey ! :-(
Came 2 drop rahul at his exam venue in vadala west siws.
Sm pg entrance exam.
I'll hv 2 w8 here 4 more 90 mins til exam gets over,man wat m I gonna do?
Rite nw I m listening "calm like a bomb" by RATM, coool song.
I m hvng rohan's ipod,I m also hvng my cel bt ab ipod hai hi toh ;-)
4 1st few minutes I talked 2 few fnds bt fir bore ho gaya... :)
N moozik is too cool,rite nw "slayer" is goin on "Chemical Warfare"...
N ya simultaneously I m blogging.
Gud manish,kip it up dude !
(i m talking 2 myself,manier times I do)
Baju me ek bandi baithi hai bt if I talk to her,she s gonna show her attitude,I m sure so 4get it.
1 aunty is solving crosswords,1 oder aunt is hvng lays,man I m hungry,dint evn hd my lunch :-(
Thrs no plc nearby to get sutta either,let it be.
Jus nw chkd d time,its already 3,jus 30 more minutes :)
Exam ws 4m 2pm n stil thr were few ppl whu came aftr 2 nd I alws thot I m d most careless n lazy guy,hehe.
I rmbrd my clg days.
Chalo few more songs n thn guys wil cm out.
Rite nw I m hvng ..sorry..listening CHOPSUEY by SOAD.
I cry when angels deserve to dieeeeeeeeeeeee.....

(wrote this blog on 10th Feb 2008 at around 3 pm but then sala mobile se post nahin karne de raha tha....nd so posting it late :) )

The Hell's Angel...is Back !!

I am so lazy...

Started bloggin in august 2007..jus wrote few blogs...nd then here it is 2008...hehe...
but i like blogging...
i m careless too... :)

newys...nw i m thinkin ki roj bloggin karna chahiye...its such a gud thing..gud timepass...
it is smthin u do for urself...

i felt so nice after i wrote last nite's blog on ma iron maiden concert...
1st time i used pics in between while writin blog...it luks realy gud...

so i have nw decided...ki bloggin karte rahne ka...

mumbai me sala bohat thand hain...hell freezes over...
i m hr from last 20 months...but this is the 1st time .. mumbai has become so cold,...

or else...i alws used to say...sala mumbai me toh thrs no winter season...i think kisine sunn liya...hehe...

the temp last nite ws 8.5 degrees and today they said its gonna be less than dat...
lets c...

mumbai's least temp ws in 1962...7.4 degrees...lagta hain this time record's gonna break...

hmmm...so wat ws i saying...?

yaa...i m gonna blog achese nw...

THE HELL's ANGEL IS BACK !!

Something more bout ME...

Few key words to describe me.... MANISH MAHADEO MATTAWAR....are...Rock moozik...cute babies (babies are alws cute..i kno)...FRIENDS (The only unmentioned basic necessity in books)...and few less imp things than these...

.i m typical die hard rock fan...but then to mention the truth...rock fans are never typical...they are diff in thr own way....neways wont go into depth...may be will mention in another blog :-)

FRIENDS...now how to say..wat to say...its so difficult to describe all ur feelings with the help of just 26 alphabets available...for me this word have been the most imp part of my life...may be sometimes more imp than family...but better not to compare...i have huge number of fnds...as i mentioned myself as an amiable guy..its obvious..but then more imp is the importance u give to them..they shud too...nd i do get that...

I have been the personality whu can be called as "laughter booster"...nopes...i m no clown...but then the basic funda of my life have been..that...if i be wid my fnds...or for dat matter even a stranger...then that person shud njoy my company...i blive in making ppl laugh and laughing wid them... it has been well said "u dont stop laughin cuz u get old...but...u get old cuz u stop laughin" ....neways laughter has been nd will alws remain the unseperable part of my life.... :)

The oder more imp thing dat i find in myself...for wich my fnds love my company..or need my company....is dat i alws lend an ear if some1s talking...i rmbr many incidences when i cud see my fnds down depressed..needing sm1 to talk to...and i have been thr...wid them..till the time...they cheer up...nd this is the reason i feel that i have alws had some1 to hear me and understand me when i express my state of despair...

The only reason i feel i have the maturity or understanding to understand oders' problem is the struggle i have faced in my life...or came across the situations the ppl come and feel depressed...i certainly blive that "unless and untill u go thru somthing...u can never understand or even imagine how must it be feeling like !!"

Oder than this what i like is not very extra ordinary....freaking out wid fnds....movies...surfing...chatting...wrinting diary...minesweeper...and now a days blogging… :-)

Me Myself and Who Else...?

I was always fond of writing something dat comes to my mind.
I wrote diary for a long time almost more than 2 years.
Dunno I shud call it a long time or not, but for me it ws.
I wrote it from my 1st year engineering to 3rd year engineering, oh goodness, I did it for 3 years I guess ;-)
And later if something came to my mind, I wrote it quite a few times as notes in my mobile phone.
But now the world is so hi-tech that u can maintain ur own online diary, so why not to run at the same pace, and dats why I think I m here.
This is the place where my fnds and some1 else if interested will come to know me more and I think may be sometimes when I alone will read my own posts, maybe I will discover something about me, which I never felt or did before. This is what I experienced when I used to read my diary.
So this is the place to know everything in the known universe about Me, Myself and Who Else…?